Things have been very busy over the last couple months so I havent had much time to sit down and post an entry in what feels like ages. Since I have been busy I have been staying out of trouble for the most part . I dont have to much time to write a long post so here are some quick updates for now:

*Ive lost more weight and I am now doen 87 pounds. Its not coming off quick enough, but it will pay off in the end when I am finished*

*Ive got a boyfriend who treats me sooo good. I cant get enough of him, he makes me feel special and that doesnt happen very often.*

*Cody is getting sooooooo big he now weighs 12 lbs 4 oz. Hes still cute as ever. I actually think he gets cuter everyday.*

*Applied for more finacial aid so I can take some more classes next semester. I still have no idea what I want to major in, but nursing is on the top of my list.*

*Works been pretty stressful as of lately, I hope that ends very soon because its driving me crazy.*

Well, I am off to pick up Shane at work. Sweet dreams to all.

Sorry I havent posted in a while, I have just been to busy to post. When I do have the time, I am usually to tired lol.

My neice had her baby yesturday! Cody Ernest is 19 1/2 inches long and 7 lbs 11 oz. It was such a wonderful experience to watch my niece give birth to him. She was in laybor for 2 hours and 45 minutes. Cody is the cutest little thing, but he doesnt have redhair like the rest of us . Oh well, I am just happy the both of them are safe and healthy thats the most important part.

While I was in the delivery room yesturday I have come to the decision that I want to be a nurse in the delievery room . I think I would make a great nurse and I love children so it would be great!

hmm.. Ive lost 65 lbs so far I weight 371 now I am at 306. I still have quiet a bit I want to lose, but I am not giving up at all. I am bound to lose it all because I want to be a healthy and happy person.

Anyhoo, I have to get to the gym before I go visit Cody and mommy of course .

Sorry I havent posted in a while, but I have been pretty busy as of late.

Two weekends ago the altenator went in my car. Amy, Dj, and I eneded up getting stranded at some guy's house for like 2 hours waiting for someone to come pick us up. Dave was the name of the guy that picked us up at the end of his road. He doesnt live that far from my house maybe a 15 minute ride, but no one was home so we just waited at his house. The funny thing is, he knows my brothers and a bunch of other people around here. Before the 3 of us left his house he told us to "pass it on" (talking about doing a nice deed for someone else in trouble. Later that night after we left Nathans house we went to the store so DJ could get something to drink. Amy and I were just sitting in the truck talking. I happened to look out my window for a second and some guys jeep was rolling backwards towards the gas pumps/road. I totally freaked and ran into the store to tell him, I guess that was my good deed of the day. It was just weird how it worked out. Karma!

I have almost finished my christmas shopping finally! I have to pick up one more thing for my uncle and I will be finished. Now, I just have to wrap them .

I cleaned my closet out of the weekend and found a bunch of junk. Oh my god! I found this really big UGLY blue and purple bow that I put in my hair all the time when I was a kid. I dont know what the hell was wrong with me.

I have the weekend off this weekend, but its going to be another busy weekend. Not that I really mind since it gets me out of the house. Friday night I am supposed to go to a party at Cassidie's moms house. We are celebrating Syvanna's brother Wayne's birthday. There will be lots of beer/liquor so it should be interesting to say the least lol . Ill probably have a hangover .

Saturday I have to help Amy and Dj pack because they need to move into there house by the 19th. DJ also wants me to go christmas shopping with him so I can help him pick something nice out for Amy. I also need to paint my room like I want to at some point. On Sunday Darren is coming over to look at the blazer my dad has because he really needs a vehicle bad.

Well, I have to go put some laundry in and go work out for a while. Happy Holidays to all!

Why couldnt I have slept in till 6 am like I wanted to? Ill tell you why, because my cat is a pain in my ass. I love him to pieces, but he aint sleepin in my room tonight. Everytime I let Pinkie sleep in my room, he decides to wake me up at 4am to piss me off.

I got to train my friend Syvanna at work yesterday. It was great having someone helping me for once. I usually clean 40 rooms by myself daily, so having an extra hand helped out alot. I got some extra cleaning done!

After work, Syvanna and I went to her house. She lives right out in the country like me, its great! Her parents own alot of land so next hunting season, she is going to take me out back of her house to hunt. Syvanna's step dad Joe is selling a really nice truck! Of course, its a chevy! He wants $1500 for it. I am going to have to talk to Joe about it because I want that truck so damn bad! Since the fucker is huge, it would be great to go off roading with.

I have to go slip on some socks and head out to pick up my girls for work... thank god I have the weekend off woooohooo!

I am so happy work is over! I have worked for the last 5 days straight and am starting to pay for it. I am so exhausted today, I guess going to bed late and being up at 5am doesnt make matters any better.

I am so excited that I will be able to sleep in for a few extra hours in the morning. I plan on working out, cleaning out my closet, and painting my room tomorrow on my day off. I should really clean out my car as well since I have been putting it off for the last month lol. I have just been so busy with everything else I have going on so I havent gotten around to it. That reminds me.. I need to pick up some window washer fluid for my car since im out. It was kinda hard seeing out my window this morning on my way to work with mud on the dang window.

Opps.. I almost forgot! I have to stop by Amy's house in the morning so her boyfriend can change the cd player in my car. I hope he just doesnt blow any of my fuses like last time .

Another one of the girls quit at work yesterday. She was a no call/no show so Dawn went and highered a new girl. Which is great because its my friend Syvanna. Cassidie, Syvanna, and I all together at once means only one thing....one hellofagood time!

When I get paid on Thursday I really need to pick up a punching bag. I really need something to punch instead of the wall when I need to let off some steam.

hMmMmM.... I really need a massage, a boyfriend would come in handy right about now lol.

I went over to Cassidie and Norm's house last night for a few hours. Norm and Roger spent 45 minutes cutting up my brothers 6 pointer he got the other day while Cassidie and I played super nintendo stoned off our asses! Do you know how longs its been since I have played that?! I broke out the nintendo a few weeks back so Cassidie decided to borrow the super nintendo off her mom.

While the guys were next door at my brothers house, Rogers girlfriend Crystal showed up. She came over to get Roger for dinner, but he was nextdoor helping Norm. When the guys came back over, Crystal asked Roger to go over and eat dinner since she spent most of the night cooking for him. Instead of going home to eat, he ended up going to the store to get something else to eat because he didnt like what she cooked him. If I were her, I would have kicked his mother fuckin ass! He should have been greatful she was nice enough to do that because some girls wouldnt do that for their men. I swear if I had a boyfriend like that he would be gone. I hate guys that disrespect the girls they are with. I think Roger is spending way to much time with Norm because he's beinging to be a real dickhead, I guess drugs will do that to you. I shouldnt really say anything because I smoke a lil green bud here and there, but they are into some really hard stuff.

I was up most of the night with menstrol cramps. I really wish men could have period's instread of us women, but I know they would be little cry babies about it .

I went to workout after work today and some older lady kept eye balling me. Yes, fat people do like to exercice were arent as lazy as you think! God that pisses me off. Anyhoo, im off to play a game of cards with the parental units and work on some algebra homework.

Bigfoot (one of my oh so cute kitties) is in heat and she keeps making her little horny kittie sounds . Anyone got any earplugs?!

I took Cassidie to the grocery store after work so she could do some shopping. While she did that, I went over to the gym to work out, but it was closed when I got there. They closed early because it was snowing out. Since that idea flew out the window, I went back to the grocery store and waited for her to finish up her shopping. After she was finished, we headed over to her mothers house and visited with her for a few minutes. Cassidie's boyfriend wont let her see her mother, so I sneek her over every now and then (her boyfriend is a relative of mine and im aloud to say this, hes a real prick to her).

I felt really bad this morning because when I was down at Cassidie's picking her up for work, she ended up finding two condoms in Norm's jeans. They dont use condoms together since Norm is sterile and cant have kids. Needless to say, she now thinks he is cheating on her. Usually when Cassidie has a problem with Norm, she always comes to me and asks for my advice. Its just hard to give her advice sometimes because I know she is never going to leave him no matter how shitty he treats her. I just wish Norm would smarten up and realize he has a nice girlfriend for once. If he dont, then hes going to lose her and probably end up commiting suicide like my brother did.

Im supposed to head over to Cassidie's later to have a few brews and kick back for a while. The guys want to play strip poker, that should be an interesting one. I probably wont play though, I wish I wasnt overweight so I could play. I know that sounds pretty stupid, but I like new things. Im sure no one would really mind if I played because we all have a blast together, its just my lack of confidence I guess. My lack of confidence holds me back from living life to the fullest. I am so affraid of what other people think and that also gets in the way. I shouldnt care what other people think of me and do the things I want to do without a care in the world, but I dont.  *sigh* Maybe things will change when I lose more wieght and build my confidence up a little.

Anyhoo, im off to shower and head out for a while.

While I was cleaning rm 20 at work today, a HUGE (well, not super huge but pretty damn big) spider came out of the 2 inch gap at the bottom of the wall. It scared the carp out of me and I made the biggest jackass out of myself because I screamed. One of the LNA's came running down the hallway to see if I was ok. I

I have always been deathly affraid of insects ever since I was a child. Whenever I saw an insect indoors or outdoors I would always scream even if it wasnt touching me. Its funny that I never outgrew that stage, I cant beleive I am still terrified of bugs.

I am very curious about something, I wonder how many other people are terrified of bugs or have any other phobia's for that matter.  Anyone feel up to sharing any with me? I am very intrested in hearing from others on this!

I leave you with this:

aRaChNoPhObIa

An abnormal and persistent fear of spiders. Sufferers from arachnophobia experience undue anxiety even though they realize the risk of encountering a spider and being harmed by it is small or nonexistent. They may avoid going barefoot and may be especially alert when taking showers or getting into and out of bed. This phobia was exploited in a 1990 movie called Arachnophobia.

"Arachnophobia" is derived from the Greek "arachne" (spider) and "phobos" (fear). The Greek word was derived from the name "Arachne," a maiden in Greek mythology whom the goddess Athena turned into a spider after the girl, a skilled weaver, challenged Athena to a weaving contest.

"Arachno-" is also part of the term "arachnodactyly" which refers to long spider-like fingers and toes, a frequent finding in Marfan syndrome, a heritable disorder of connective tissue.